Picture this, After a dispute with my hunk o burning love before Sunday church( It couldn’t have been that important because for the life of me I can’t remember what it was about), I’m standing there surrounded by a sea of people in our loud auditorium ( stewing and acting like a child) and he nudges closer to make contact with me ( a gesture of “I’m sorry”, seeing his first love language is touch), I spitefully and intentionally jerk my arm away from his and move closer to the seat farthest from him. I spent the whole church hour behaving like this.
My selfish thoughts went a little like this……..
Humpf … If he even thinks of trying to share the Bible with me when they ask us to turn to a page, he has another thing coming. I WILL NOT turn to page 756 and share a Bible with him. Nope I’m just going to sit here and sulk. He can keep his Bible all to himself.
How selfish and embarrassing is that ,now that I have hindsight?! I am certainly sure, out of perhaps the thousands of women attending that day, nobody, nobody has ever acted like that. My sin nature won out that morning and it’s something I am not proud of.
Fast Forward a month or two later………
I got together with some fellow Christian mommas ( Nope not naming names!) We chat and share our struggles and stories and how the week went. In normal Krystal fashion , I told my crazy story fully expecting I was the only one that would be exposing a Sunday morning tantrum ( because in my head, I am the only one that has had one!), but this didn’t happen! All my girlfriends had similar stories of marital spats and moments of frustration before or during Sunday service! Are you kidding me!? I did not feel so alone! I was so relieved that I was not alone. Other people struggle too! Women that I respect ,at that. Godly , wonderful mommas and wives that I admire, they have church fights too!!! ( I should not been so overly excited to hear this, any disagreement with your spouse is not something to celebrate.) I was just elated to know that I am not alone.
For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God- Romans 3:23
I guess the whole point of me telling you this is to encourage transparency with your friends, even if it is revealing your sin nature . Instead of hiding behind a smile and an ” Awwww , that is super crazy!”, let them know you have some crazy too! Don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to say we should make excuses for bad behavior or make light of it. What I am saying is, it is nice to know you are not alone. Even some of the chicks you respect most have stories to tell. It is nice to get past the plastic Barbie smiles and the superficial stories and share our struggles with others.
So when you hear a “Girl ,I can’t believe I behaved like that!!!” story, maybe try sharing yours too! It will make someone feel not so alone.
Extend the Grace and understanding to others that you would like to have extended to you. Being transparent and real is a gift you might not know you are giving.
“Being transparent and real is a gift you might not know you are giving. “- Krystal McFalls
Do you have any “Girl, I can’t believe I behaved like that stories?” Do you find it easier to hide your sin nature from others for fear of being judged? I would love to hear about your experience with this.